Crushed...

       This is probably a premature despair on my part, but currently it's all I can think about since I got the call from Matt's commanding ROTC officer... I found out Thursday night that Matt's training dates for this summer were moved from June 13-July 11 to July 8-Aug 6. Which means that unless this little boy comes the week of July 4th Matthew won't be here to see him come into the world... So I've been contemplating what that really means to me. I guess I never really thought about what it would be like giving birth to my first child without the support of my amazing husband. Every dream I've had about giving birth Matt is always right there beside me, helping me and sharing the pure and ultimate joy of finally meeting our son. But since that call, I feel like all my hopes and dreams are being crushed and thrown out the window. I mean this is our FIRST. You only get one of those... Granted you also only get one second, third, forth and fifth too... but having that first one, the one you base all your expectations for the other deliveries on, having that one crushed just feels so much more depressing to me (at least for the time being as I have yet to experience the others). I keep hoping that MSG Straight got him mixed up with another cadet like he has in the past, but I don't dare believe that to be true...
So on Monday I'm going to talk to my OB about possibly inducing the week of July 4th, but I don't think he'll agree to it... But for now I cling to the hope that he will agree because it is an extenuating circumstance... If not I'll just hope and pray that I'm like my mom when it comes to the first child. Because in all reality having Eric any time after July 1st would still be considered full term... So I just hope and pray that Eric feels the same and is ready to come meet his family that couldn't be more excited to have him.

30 weeks and counting :)

       I can't believe how fast this pregnancy has gone by!! There are days where it feels like it'll never end, but then I look back on it and there's only 10 weeks left until I'm due!! However, all I care is that he stays in for 8 weeks and 4 days. After that he's free to come whenever he wants because then his daddy will be here to see him make his grand entrance. Since out little getaway to San Diego Eric has been more active then ever. :) I think he liked that I was walking WAY more each day then I normally do when I'm at home. He's still a night owl but he's becoming a morning bird at the same time... I'm hoping that he doesn't keep that up once he's here.

      Other then that, Matt and Eric have been keeping me busy as always. Matt with making new bags for all of his flags, and Eric with finishing up a few last min things before he comes to join out little family. I'm contemplating making Eric a Peek-a-Boo blanket. One of my friends was explaining it to me, it's a solid/small print blanket with flaps and under each flap is an object/animal. That's not a very good description so if I do end up making it I'll post pictures of it once it's all done.

One of those nights...

       Do you ever have those nights where no matter what you do you just can't get to sleep?? It's been those one of those nights since Matt left yesterday morning for training in the National Guard. One thing I do look forward to more then ever is the night that he comes home and I get to cuddle with him again.... Thankfully Bray'Tac has been more of a cuddle bug then ever lately. I'll wake up late at night (being a pregnant woman and all...) and he'll be there snuggling up next to me or else laying on my legs. Right now he's currently laying down next to me on the couch just waiting for me to pick him up and carry him into bed.... lol at least until I typed that.

     Yes it is almost one in the morning and yes I should be in bed sleeping right now, but for some reason not having Matt here I just don't want to crawl into my bed... so I'm carefully avoiding it by staying up until all hours of the night watching Veronica Mars and wishing that Matt was here... wow I sound like a love sick teenager pining away for her boyfriend of two days... anyways....

      Alrighty I'm going to watch one more episode of Veronica Mars get something to eat and then crawl into bed... and hopefully fall asleep...

Pictures from Our San Diego Adventure

It's kinda hard to see but Matt's shadow finger is pointing to the Decorator Crab

Octopus

Some cool fish we saw at Birch Aquarium

Sea World Pictures

Matt in the brig on the USS Midway

More USS Midway pictures

The Mountain Lion that wanted to eat me for lunch

The Little Meerkat that was acting just like a little human sitting in the shade

Playing at San Diego Zoo and San Diego Safari Park

On the beach at Coronado Island

Historic Mormon Battalion Museum in Old Town San Diego

Playing at Lego Land