Two weeks and counting...

       It's officially been two weeks since I last saw the love of my life, and 12 days since I last got to talk to him. I think that last part has been the most frustrating part of LDAC training for me. it just doesn't make any sense to me that when he was at basic with a bunch of teenage/newly enlisted soldiers he was able to call on Sundays and write during the week, and yet when he's at training to be an officer he's not allowed to do either (he can write when he gets breaks but he can't send/receive mail). I mean come on! These are men/women they are training to be the next set of officers for the army but they can't even be trusted with phones?!? And yet the newly enlisted soldiers that pulled all kinds of crap at basic were allowed to have phone privileges?!?! How does that even make sense!!??

       K I'm done venting now. It's just been really bugging me ever since Matt left. But oh well, I'll just count down the days/nights until July 9th when Matt will get his phone back and I'll finally be able to talk to the love of my life again.

       In other news, since Matt left I've been keeping myself extra busy between picking up extra hours at work and making baby things for my little prince and for my friends that are also expecting (I think I counted 12 of them?? 5 that know what they are having and 3 that will find out next month...) It's been kinda nice because I've been able to use up a lot of my stash of fabric/yarn which has emptied some plastic bins and given me more storage space :). although I think Matt would just laugh at my growing stack of UFO's (un-finished objects), it's been nice to have lots of different things to work on. Especially since my attention span has dropped to a max of an hour a day on any given thing.. I'm claiming is a pregnancy thing, but it's probably just because it makes me feel like the day goes by faster if I keep switching what I work on throughout the day... Especially without having Matt here to tell me to go to bed at a decent hour... *sigh* I never realized how much I planned my day around Matt until he wasn't here to plan around. He was always my alarm clock, my dinner time "appointment," bed time setter and a bunch of other things that I can't think of names for right now... I think the thing that gets me the most is looking back at how different my life was before Matt and I got married. I was always "Miss Independent," I always did what I needed/wanted when I needed/wanted without needing to be told, and yet since he came into my life it's like I can't make the unimportant choices anymore... and now I'm just starting to ramble because I should be going to bed, and yet all I want to do is sit on my couch and day dream about Matt and Eric... and now that I've admitted that I'm tired I'm starting to fall asleep typing so I'm going to head to bed now... Night!!

And then that frown turned upside-down!!

       MATT GOT HIS ORIGINAL DATES BACK!!!!!!!!! And I'm just a little bit excited about it!! :D Thankfully my husband is amazing and a half and was able to get enough work out time in before last Wednesday that he was able to pass his PT test!!! Which means he'll leave on Monday for a month but that he'll get to be here for the baby!! :D Instead of leaving 3 weeks before my due date he'll come home and have a week and a half (ish) to wait for our little bundle of joy to come!

Crushed...

       This is probably a premature despair on my part, but currently it's all I can think about since I got the call from Matt's commanding ROTC officer... I found out Thursday night that Matt's training dates for this summer were moved from June 13-July 11 to July 8-Aug 6. Which means that unless this little boy comes the week of July 4th Matthew won't be here to see him come into the world... So I've been contemplating what that really means to me. I guess I never really thought about what it would be like giving birth to my first child without the support of my amazing husband. Every dream I've had about giving birth Matt is always right there beside me, helping me and sharing the pure and ultimate joy of finally meeting our son. But since that call, I feel like all my hopes and dreams are being crushed and thrown out the window. I mean this is our FIRST. You only get one of those... Granted you also only get one second, third, forth and fifth too... but having that first one, the one you base all your expectations for the other deliveries on, having that one crushed just feels so much more depressing to me (at least for the time being as I have yet to experience the others). I keep hoping that MSG Straight got him mixed up with another cadet like he has in the past, but I don't dare believe that to be true...
So on Monday I'm going to talk to my OB about possibly inducing the week of July 4th, but I don't think he'll agree to it... But for now I cling to the hope that he will agree because it is an extenuating circumstance... If not I'll just hope and pray that I'm like my mom when it comes to the first child. Because in all reality having Eric any time after July 1st would still be considered full term... So I just hope and pray that Eric feels the same and is ready to come meet his family that couldn't be more excited to have him.

One of those nights...

       Do you ever have those nights where no matter what you do you just can't get to sleep?? It's been those one of those nights since Matt left yesterday morning for training in the National Guard. One thing I do look forward to more then ever is the night that he comes home and I get to cuddle with him again.... Thankfully Bray'Tac has been more of a cuddle bug then ever lately. I'll wake up late at night (being a pregnant woman and all...) and he'll be there snuggling up next to me or else laying on my legs. Right now he's currently laying down next to me on the couch just waiting for me to pick him up and carry him into bed.... lol at least until I typed that.

     Yes it is almost one in the morning and yes I should be in bed sleeping right now, but for some reason not having Matt here I just don't want to crawl into my bed... so I'm carefully avoiding it by staying up until all hours of the night watching Veronica Mars and wishing that Matt was here... wow I sound like a love sick teenager pining away for her boyfriend of two days... anyways....

      Alrighty I'm going to watch one more episode of Veronica Mars get something to eat and then crawl into bed... and hopefully fall asleep...

Since He's Been Home...

       This past week has been a busy one for us. I picked Matt up on Wednesday and dropped him off at school. And life has been amazing/crazy ever since. Because he had already missed two days of classes he was determined not to miss any more. I was expecting him to come home and sleep for a little while, but he had other ideas. So to school he went. I picked him up after his class got him some lunch then took him back to school. Thrusday was about the same, except we made a run down to  Matt's Unit in  Spanish Fork, where he almost wasn't going to be able to come to my graduation. But thankfully, because he was the Distinguished Honor Grad (Highest of all of the classes) He was able to put off reporting until Oct (Whew...). We also found out that Fort Sill didn't send Matt home with all the papers that he needed to report. So We've been trying to track all of those down and get everything all squared away and done. Hopefully sooner rather then later...Friday he went to classes as normal and then I kidnapped him for the weekend.

       We went up to Park City and had a mini getaway before both of us had to start getting back to reality. We stayed up at Waldorf Astoria and had a blast. It's such a nice hotel, they had free valet parking, chocolates (like real chocolate) on our pillows each night, a heated pool, and tons to do around it. We went up to Park City Mountain Resort and spent Saturday just playing up there (so much fun!!) We both got a little bit burned but not too bad. While we were there I got a job offer working were I used to up in Eagle Mtn managing a shipping place I worked at during high school. We really weren't expecting it but it was a really good surprise for us both!

       Sunday we walked around Park City Main Street saw some interesting things, walked around the open air markets and just enjoyed being outside talking and walking around. When we had seen all that we wished to see we jumped in the car and headed home. unpacking everything and putting Matt's pile of Military stuff away and getting it off of the living room floor (seriously didn't think that they sent him home with that much stuff until I saw it all over my floor)... Once that was done Matt started doing things that he needed to get done so he would be ready for school on Tuesday and I worked on cleaning up more of the house.  That night we went over to see Matt's parents, got some amazing raisin cinnamon rolls, visited with them and pick up Bray'Tac.

      Basically the moral of this post is that MATT'S HOME AND I'M LOVING EVERY SECOND OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

     Anyways, time for me to start cleaning again...

~Melanie